As a child I spent several summers at Camp Beckwith, in Fairhope, AL. During the summer of 1996, I spent the summer exploring and conquering camp, as a day camp counselor. I stayed on campus all summer in a small room in Harmon hall. It was a summer I will always remember.
That 15/16 year old who walked the trails, held little children’s hands and sang worship songs nightly in the chapel was afraid. I had deep friendships with my family and friends, as well as, I was nestled deeply in a youth group that supported me. Yet, I was still scared. I was more than scared, I was unsettled and running from the life I was living. The summer of 1996 is where the cracks in my insecurity began seething through. I remember the late nights alone sitting on the porch of the chapel or rocking in the chairs outside Wilson hall. I can recall listening to the songs by Dave Wilcox strummed on Jay Oaks’ guitar. We would all sing along and I would drift away in my head. Who would I be at 35? Where would I live? Would I be loved? Where would my inexperienced scared teenage self end up?
Fast Forward 20 Years
I have returned to camp for the last 3 years to drop my children off to be campers. This summer when I returned to camp, at the age of 34, my heart swelled with security and fervent strength in The Lord. 20 years later, I can see how he has woven my life perfectly in his plan. I am loved by an incredible man. We have 2 beautiful children and a successful business. We are a team that puts Christ and each other’s needs first. I couldn’t be more proud of the marriage we have together. He provides me with an enormous amount of security and love.
As I sit on the dock and soak up the rise of the sun I feel peace. My life surpasses all my expectations and wonders. I am happy and free.
The experiences gained from my first summer a fair distance with out my family resonate with me 20 years later. I do not live in fear of tomorrow. I can tell that 16 year old child inside, You are OK- You are more than OK! LIFE IS GOOD!